Well, I'm sitting here not able to sleep. Fortunately, it's quiet and I'm completely awake due to an earlier nap that seems to mess me up for the rest of the day. Yet, I feel quite rested. I've discovered how watching Netflix takes over my life when I don't want to think about anything or 'do' anything for anyone.
I have a love-hate relationship with watching Netflix shows and movies. I go on a Netflix marathon watching TV shows I've never seen before. It somehow comforts me watching mind-numbing TV that often gives me more to think about how wonderful my life is (and that isn't sarcasm). I've watched "My So-Called Life", "United States of Tara", "Hot in Cleveland", "Drop Dead Diva", and now "Parenthood". I often ask myself if this time is wasted. I realize somedays it seems like it but I often multi-task such as baking something in the oven, cleaning, and laundry. This is when I debate whether being at home and watching these shows are silly. I could be that mom sitting at home eating bon-bons like the show "Married with Children". It's sad I know but not many of you know me and I rarely stay home. I'm usually up by 6:30 a.m. and out the door by 7:40 a.m. to take the kids to school.
When I was young teenager, I would watch television in my room by myself. My siblings would joke about how much useless TV trivia I knew and all the songs on the commercials. One day my mom passed by my room and said, "I know you. You can't fool me. There's always something going on up 'there'." So you ask, "What's going on up 'there'?" I guess it's all these crazy thoughts going on up 'there' - thoughts about life. I often analyze why anyone would write and direct shows about this - shows about dysfunction, tragedy, relationships that don't last, pain, suffering, etc. And I see this is the stuff we find fascinating and intriguing. In someway, we relate to it, so we're not alone or justify the wrongs we've ever done and regret. After I finally figure it out, I feel better about my life and the normalcy that goes with it.
Today, my 2nd daughter and I take a short nap together which never happens. And she tells me how much fun we had spending time together. Later I take her to her 2nd soccer practice where she makes a goal. I love watching her energy and the smiles on her face. And twice she stops playing to pick dandelions (aka weeds) for me. I just love her sweetness. I love watching this instead of watching Netflix.
